Nan, todays the day I’m supposed to say goodbye to you and yet I can’t be there. It still seems surreal that you’re not here and won’t be coming back, I wanted to tell you I was sorry, but I can’t even do that now.
I’m not sure if you would have even remembered me if I was to come and see you because sometimes you forgot, but others you didn’t. I remember the last time I came to see you, It was new years eve and it was my first time seeing you since you went into the care home. You looked so happy, the happiest I’d seen you look since grandad passed away.
I had a feeling something would happen this year, I just didn’t think I wouldn’t be able to see you, to say one last goodbye. I’m sorry for not seeing you as much as I should have and for not telling you how much I love you. I hope you know I love you and that I’ll always remember you no matter what. When this is all over I’ll say my proper goodbye, but for now…
Goodbye nanny, until we meet again.
I love you.
My nan was and is always going to be remembered as an incredible woman; she was strong and knew what she wanted from life. Not being able to go see her or say goodbye is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, it feels so unfair. She deserved more and deserved to have everyone who loved her say one final goodbye.
The coronavirus has changed so much and hurt so many families. If you too have lost someone and are unable to say goodbye then I’m truly sorry and my heart goes out to anyone suffering during this time. I’m struggling to find my words today because it all just seems so surreal, but I just want to say to everyone to please stay safe and keep indoors.
Rest easy Nan, I love you.