I like to please everyone; I’ve been like this my whole life.
It’s funny because no matter how much you try to please everyone, there’s always someone who doubts you. As of lately, that person seems to be me. Without realising I’ve subconsciously let everyone else’s doubts, control me. You begin to internalise everyone’s side-remarks and play on them, and they become so significant that you begin to believe them yourself.
I will never forget what it feels like to be inferior to everyone else because that’s how I’m made to feel. There’s no rule that says I have to live my life like everyone else, so why is there so much pressure to?
There’s so much pressure on me to get a job, but I don’t want to jump into it like everyone wants me to. I want something I know I will love, and I want to figure out what makes me happy, not what makes everyone else happy. It seems that everyone else knows what I want before I even do. I may be naive in thinking this way, but I want to figure it out without the constant pressure or remarks.
I’ve let everyone’s opinions stray me away from doing what I want. Previously, I let these thoughts consume me so much that I stopped blogging because I felt like I had to, but I want to do what makes me happy.
We all share one home, but we are all not the same; we don’t think alike and should express those differences.
From now on I’m going to ditch, living life the way everyone else expects me to. I want to find my way, without so much pressure and doubt surrounding it. I’m only going to end up unhappy, and all I want from life is to be happy, so why should I continue to be unhappy?
I know in my heart what I feel and what I want. I lost myself trying to please everyone else and now it’s time to finally think about myself.
If you’re anything like me then you may relate to this and if you do, do what makes you happy. We all have our own path to follow, so follow yours and don’t look back because I won’t.
You’re the artist of your life.
Don’t give the paintbrush to anyone else.