I look for approval in others, at least I did for a long time. If someone didn’t like me, I’d torture myself for it, if I didn’t fit into someone’s idea of pretty, smart, or funny I would bring myself down.
Even starting this blog was a massive step for me. I never believed I could do it because I was too afraid for negative comments to take over and ruin what I love. If there’s one thing I’ve learned since taking the plunge into blogging, is that you’ll never be everybody’s cup of tea and that’s okay.
It’s not about others, It’s about you and if you believe in what you do then that’s all that matters.
I wanted everyone to like me, but it held me back so much and sometimes it still does. I lived for acceptance, but if anything the only person who didn’t accept me, was me. I spent so much time dwelling on what I did, or how I came across that I only became someone I’m not and that someone wasn’t someone I liked too much.
My life’s far from being what I want it to be, but I know in time I’ll achieve what I want. I was always told I couldn’t achieve what I wanted, that my ideas were silly and I should just do something else instead. I used to let it eat me up, but now the only person who has to believe in me, is me.
When you begin to believe in yourself and focus on what really matters, those comments don’t hold you back so much.
I’ve always been someone who had low self-esteem and confidence, I still do and sometimes I struggle being so open and honest. But each step I take is an achievement and only makes me believe in myself that little bit more.
I know a lot of people who are like me, not confident and are afraid of what others will think. If you’re like me then you know how hard it is when you want to do something so much, but you’re fearful of failure or rejection. Do what you love and take that first step because you can do it, the only thing that matters is your happiness.
Though I’ve come a long way, I still have further to go. Starting today, I’m going to dive into the deep end and start believing in myself more.
Stop looking outside for scraps of pleasure or fulfullment, for validation, security, or love. You have treasure within that is indefintely greater than anyting the world can offer.