Hi me, it's me from the future... we're still here. You're probably obsessing over how you look right now, I know its hard but you'll make it... you'll still struggle, even the future you still struggles but it gets better and guess what? Losing weight and putting on makeup isn't going to solve your problems, … Continue reading A message to me
Cancer, a word i never thought would enter my life, but it did. The word cancer holds so much pain and hatred for me, but through all the pain cancer has caused it also holds a deeper meaning. A meaning that goes beyond anything i ever imagined it to. From a young age i heard … Continue reading Cancer
Truthfully, i've never loved or accepted who i was. For me, social media took over and i'd compare myself to unrealistically beautiful women. I'd obsess and compare the way they looked and how their lives appeared to be more worthy than my own, i would feel like i was never good enough or pretty enough. … Continue reading Loving yourself.
We all see you but we all deal with you differently. Some can face you without hesitation, but others fear confronting you. Those who fear you give their lives away to you but you take advantage of them. When facing you, there's no telling how you'll make one feel, will you take away the day? … Continue reading Reflection.
Lets talk depression…
Depression is something so unique yet so painful, you never know when it's going to hit you at full force. You could be laughing and smiling one minute, but the next you feel this overwhelming sense of emptiness take over. I never thought i'd become someone who wanted to end it all, just call … Continue reading Lets talk depression…
Goodbye my “friend”
Hello "friend", I'm writing this to let you know that our friendship will be no longer, years of putting one foot in front of the other to allow you to choose how my day will go. I am finally going to leave you, on the bathroom floor... alone. I may miss you (not really). This … Continue reading Goodbye my “friend”
One step back, two forward.
The truth behind recovery and becoming a better you, is theres always going to be times you loose yourself. You loose yourself at the most inconvenient times, when everything's going great but then it's not. For a while i'd lost myself, my motivation and who i was. I'd sit in bed all day emotionless, with … Continue reading One step back, two forward.
I promised myself i would stay strong and never go down the path i once did, but what if all of this is gods plan? I try to pull myself away from the darkness but when can i truly say enough is enough? Days i spend keeping myself occupied to blur the truth, but nights … Continue reading Hope.
The candle light.
I hide myself in the only place i know will take the pain away, shut the door and lock them out. It is then i realise how much i yearn for ones company and friendship but the outside world has become strange and unfamiliar to me. "go out" they say but how? when i feel … Continue reading The candle light.
One year later…
The day my life changed. November 20th 2017 was the day my life changed. I'd prepared myself for this day since my mothers diagnosis, one day she would no longer be here. She was dying and there was nothing anyone could do to stop it. I woke up to the sounds of my phone ringing, … Continue reading One year later…